Planned on going to Pooka Pineapple Splash but I'm not going - just being lazy same as yesterday ..... When feelin down and depress hanging around ppl. Just isn't my thang= I have really bad anger toward anyone...now I chose to stay in.
Bad night yesterday missing my grandma. Crying tons of thinking . Trying to remain positive. The night she pass god put in her room to be with her, instead I chose to leave her by herself to go to work. I have regrets, pain, isolation issue I'm trying to deal with ..it's Not Easy for me. No one know I'm in mourning I secretly cry to myself, late into the night. Then wake up cranky. How lovely ??? Hoping one day I can find peace within myself. Peace for my grandma.. Peace for my family who soul are sour, sour of hate and jealously ... But I still love all of them for the good memories.
Praying for a better day. Praying to help get me thru this day.
Bad night yesterday missing my grandma. Crying tons of thinking . Trying to remain positive. The night she pass god put in her room to be with her, instead I chose to leave her by herself to go to work. I have regrets, pain, isolation issue I'm trying to deal with ..it's Not Easy for me. No one know I'm in mourning I secretly cry to myself, late into the night. Then wake up cranky. How lovely ??? Hoping one day I can find peace within myself. Peace for my grandma.. Peace for my family who soul are sour, sour of hate and jealously ... But I still love all of them for the good memories.
Praying for a better day. Praying to help get me thru this day.
No comments:
Post a Comment